1.11 – The past is never dead Pt.2

Chapter tune: Boston – A man I’ll never be

Warning: Cursing, blood and death. Happy reading! πŸ˜‹

Jared’s narration:

The neighbor that I was telling you about, her name is Claire. And yes, she’s my daughter’s mother. We were kind of friends for a long time before anything happened between us, but I’ll get to that part later.

Anyway, she was part of a gang at the time. I had followed her sometimes when I was a teenager and saw that they usually met at an abandoned warehouse. Of course when I approached her the first time, she didn’t take it too well.

She told me to mind my own business but I kept stalking her almost every night. Eventually she gave me some ridiculous task to do, I think mainly to get rid of me. But I was quite good at whatever bullshit she made me do, so after some more menial tasks, she finally introduced me to the team.

It was four of us: Claire, Ayesha, Xander – maybe you’ve met him a couple of times – and me.

I never met the boss, but I hear he had managed to run almost all of Sunset Valley’s underworld. Loans, protection, fixing races, high-stakes poker games, he had a hand in everything. Our team was managing the games mostly; cards, races and whatnot.

At the same time my father had begun to really sink into drinking. He eventually lost his job because of that and spent most of his days in a dive bar that we were running. Normally he wouldn’t even think to set foot in a shithole like this, but it was one of the few places he knew he would never run into any of his former colleagues.

Of course, it was a matter of time before he got sucked into our poker game sessions that were held in there. He started reluctantly at first, but he won easy money so soon he found himself buying in the more serious and high-stakes games.

Little did he know that he never stood a chance. All those games were rigged by us.

I saw him sink lower and lower. When he wasn’t at the bar, he crawled around the house tanked.

I didn’t care. What he lost at those games, we earned. The lower he sank, the higher we rose.

Eventually, he lost everything. It must have required him to swallow quite a bit of his pride, but one night he came to talk to me, he had the nerve to ask me for money. He said that he knew I was doing some shady business to earn a living but it didn’t matter anymore. Apparently he owed quite an amount of money which he couldn’t pay back. Do you know what that son of a bitch had done? He had even bet Connor’s college money, he had nothing!

I hated him. I thought he was pathetic. So I told him exactly what this shady business was about, and that now that we had taken everything from him he didn’t matter anymore. He wasn’t even worth a loan because I knew we would never get the money back, no matter how many times we broke his arms or legs. I told him exactly what I thought of him all those years. And I’m ashamed to admit that I has happy to see the look on his face when his last hope was crushed.

A little later I heard a gunshot. When I went to see what happened, I found my father in a pool of blood and a gun beside him. But Connor had found him first.

He never left a note, but I know that in the end, I pushed him to pull the trigger. Of course, Connor never found out about any of this. It took quite some time for him to get through it, but I believe – I hope – he did eventually. With the money I had earned, I payed for his college too.

But something inside me had changed. I didn’t want to keep doing what I did anymore, but what else could I do?

Some years passed and Claire and I became closer. We even held meetings just the two of us, without the others.

Soon, we started hooking up.

I kept working with her but I couldn’t shake the feeling that maybe there was something else for me out there. I started moonlighting as a mixologist to see what that was like. Apart from bartending, I was also required to prepare some food for the customers at the bar. It was supposed to be your typical dive bar shitty food, but I wanted to make it at least acceptable. Surprisingly, not only did I like that better than everything I did in the past years, I was actually good at it. It was at that time when Molly found me and gave me a job at the bistro.

Meanwhile, my relationship with Claire had begun going downhill. Everytime we were at the same room together I knew there was going to be a fight.

She had let herself go, I think she was afraid she was getting older and that I was cheating on her with other women. The truth is that I did, almost every night. The news that I would give up my “career” and go work for Molly was the last straw for her. I don’t even remember who broke up with whom, but we both said some pretty nasty stuff to each other that night.

When I never heard from her since that night, I felt relieved. I could go on living the life I wanted, and doing whatever the hell I felt like.

But then I met you. You were the sweetest, the most beautiful and kind girl I ever met. And I know I screwed up, but I really wanna make it up to you. You and my daughter are the best things that have happened to me and I was such a dick to lose you both. I want to be the father I never had for my daughter and the man I never was for you. Please Rose, give me another chance to make you trust me again.

Rose didn’t speak for a while. She was still in a minor shock from all the things she had heard that night. “I don’t know. I need time” she finally spoke. “I understand babe” Jared said looking at the ocean. “I’ll take you home, just tell me whenever you’re ready to leave”

But she remained silent. Why did it take him so much time to come to her after what he did? Could she trust him again? She wasn’t sure yet. What she was sure of was that in front of her was a man broken. “It’s ok, we could stay here for a little longer” she finally said. She sat beside him and held him with every bit of strength she had.

At least tonight, they could find some comfort in each other’s arms.

22 thoughts on “1.11 – The past is never dead Pt.2

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  1. Oh wow 0.0 I feel a little sorry for Jared’s dad but he kinda brought it upon himself for being such a horrible person. Then again, maybe his childhood sucked as well? But Jared knowing he was the one that pushed his dad to suicide must have been hard on him despite how sucky his dad was. The way he apologised to Rose was sweet (and the last picture). I really hope everything works out for them.
    Great chapter πŸ™‚

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  2. I wonder if Jared feels a teensy-tiny bit of guilt that he gambled his father broke and ultimately led to his suicide. I know his dad didn’t treat him or Connor well at all, but still…. Hmm…

    Will we find out more about what happened to Jared’s daughter? It’d be interesting to have them meet, but I don’t know how that situation would happen. Besides, I hope he reforms himself and becomes a good man for Rose πŸ™‚

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    1. I’m sure he feels guilty, especially for the suicide part, but I hope deep down he knows he didn’t force his dad to actually do any of this. Still, he feels like he played a part. About the daughter, it will be tough indeed for them to meet right now, Claire hates his guts lol! He needs to pull himself together, that’s for sure, for both her and Rose! πŸ™‚

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  3. Wow, poor Jarred, and poor Connor. But what he needs to know is that he never forced his dad to drink and he never forced his dad to gamble everything away. And he certainly didn’t cause his father’s suicide.
    I hope Rose can see that there is a good man underneath it all.

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  4. This was very well written! It makes me care for all the horrible people involved: Jared, Jared’s dad, Claire (to some extent, but not as horrible).

    Jared is a perfect example of how nothing is ever black and white, which is vaguely frustrating. But it definitely makes for a great story! πŸ˜‰

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    1. Thank you so much!! 😁 ❀ I too felt a little sorry for Jared's dad who I initially created to be a complete monster lol, go figure! I like characters like Jared, who are definitely not good but not completely evil either, they stir one’s imagination! πŸ™‚

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  5. That was cruel what Jared did- sucking his own father out of all his money. I know he wasn’t good but still that’s horrible. There probably is still a lot ahead of him and Rose and I wonder where they end up in the end. I enjoyed exploring his story.

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    1. It was cruel indeed, but to be fair he never made his dad do those things, he made his own choices…and he’d do the same things even if Jared was not in the team running the games. Still, Jared could have helped in the end but I guess he got to a point of really hating his dad.. There’s still story ahead with Rose and him though! πŸ™‚ Thank you so much for your comment, I really enjoyed writing his story! ❀ ❀

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  6. Jared seems like he really is attracted to Rose because of her kindness, not just to take advantage of her, but he has so much to overcome from his past to be able to treat her the way she should be treated.

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    1. You’re right, he does have some serious issues to solve if he wants to be worthy of Rose. His past (whether it was his choices or not) will play a major role in future chapters. Thanks for reading and commenting! πŸ™‚

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  7. The title of this chapter says it all. No matter who or what was the real cause of their father’s suicide, both brothers won’t ever forget the day he took his life. Jared and Connor’s father was a sad person with a lonely life. You never know what would happen if… but maybe it didn’t have to lead to such a tragic end. I guess we’ll never know.

    The midnight pictures by the sea were really sweet. I’m curious if Rose will give Jared a second chance!

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    1. That’s true, they’ll never forget. Maybe now Jared has the chance for redemption (he does feel guilty still, even if it was not entirely his fault), for a new start with Rose and/or Emily, and to escape from his father’s shadow. He’s still in a pretty dark place though, so we’ll see where he ends up! πŸ˜‰ Thanks for reading and commenting! πŸ™‚

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    1. Yes, their dad was a major dick! It was a good thing that at least Jared cared for his brother to pay for his college (even with criminal money). Thank you for reading and commenting! πŸ™‚

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  8. *facepalm* I actually read it. I just forgot to like and comment. O_o Such a powerful chapter too with the suicide and all. Suicide is so sad. Nobody wins. No wonder Jared is all messed up. He’s still Jekyll and Hyde though and he better have a good explanation for how he treated Rose. I’m legit mad at him right now.

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    1. Oh, no worries! I just thought since you liked the first part of his backstory (and backstories in general), you shouldn’t miss especially this chapter! πŸ™‚
      This really messed him up, and even more because he felt like he actually triggered it!

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      1. I think that really bugged me. That was the final cruel thing his father did to him. Way to escape responsibility and drop it all on your son. It was cruel and selfish.

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