1.16 – Lost

Chapter tune: Dare – King of spades

Warning: Strong language and mentions of death. Also, this chapter is just a little longer compared to the previous ones. Thank you for reading! πŸ™‚ ❀

The morning light crept through the room window, in the motel where Jared and Molly had spent the night. It was a fairly decent establishment, but what took place in there the night before made it feel cheaper than what it actually was.

Although Molly was sleeping right by his side, he suddenly felt more alone than ever. And after remembering every detail he was capable of from the last 24 and something hours – considering the amount of booze he had consumed – he became overwhelmed with distress.

He quickly got up and headed to the door. Molly saw him leaving and jumped out of bed and right after him. “Are you ok? What happened?” she asked. What happened, right. Question of the week. “Nothing Molly, I have to go. This was a mistake and it can – it will – never happen again” he said. Molly tried to stop him with zero results.

“How can you always leave like that? I’m not your whore you know” she said, blocking the door and ready to fight. That was the core of their relationship anyway. Fighting, then sleeping together, then fighting again, in a neverending circle.

Jared’s initial reaction to Molly’s tantrums was to get mad, but this time was different. “I know Molly. You didn’t deserve my behavior and I’m sorry for every time I was such a jerk to you. But I really must go now. I’m sorry for everything.”

That was a first. Molly knew something wasn’t right. It almost seemed like goodbye. Not the angry goodbyes they spat to each other countless times in the past, this time it felt real.

She looked at him once more before he left, hoping to hear him say something, anything. She got nothing.

Jared wanted to leave the motel as soon as possible, but when he did he realized he had nowhere to go. The air was chilly but he prefered to be cold than go back to his place. He found himself in a small park and decided to sit for a smoke.

He reminisced of his not so distant night with Rose. It was so perfect… she was perfect. Why did everything have to turn to shit again? His perfect night was ruined by the call from Xander. He was with Claire in his parents’ garage where he had been working since he left the other job. Apparently there were big news that Jared needed to hear; but not over the phone.

When Jared entered the garage, he saw his best friend and his ex-girlfriend waiting for him. Almost the whole former gang was there. Except for one.

“So, what’s going on? Are we waiting for Ayesha as well? Have I opened a door to the past?” Jared asked with a hint of sarcasm.

Claire looked at Xander and nodded him to speak. “Ayesha’s dead” he said. Apparently discretion was not his strong suit.

“What?! What the fuck man, what happened?” Jared asked taken aback.

“You know that she was the only one of us still in this job. I know what you’re gonna say, Claire doesn’t count cause she’s working alone now. I mean she was the only one left working for them. Well, the cops got her man. Nobody would have thought, she was one of the best. But she never made the night. They found her in her cell, the day after she was arrested. Someone clipped her, someone from the inside. I guess the big guys did not want to leave any loose ends” Xander spoke almost without breathing.

“Shit. That’s awful man” Jared said. “But you know Ayesha and I were never on good terms, so why did you have to drag me here in the middle of the night to tell me that? Ugh, no offence.”

Claire sighed and Xander continued talking “Because obviously that’s not all. I don’t know how to tell you this but, we heard that the cops are now looking for you too.”

“Me? What the fuck… why would they be looking for me of all people? I was the first one to get out of all this!”

“Shit, I don’t know dude. You said it yourself that you weren’t on good terms. Maybe she chose to rat you out in exchange for, I don’t know, less jail time?”

“But you know what this means…” Claire spoke “if they get you, that makes you a loose end too.”

“They have nothing on me” Jared said, not sure if he believed it or not.

“They found a bunch of dead bodies the other day, at a construction site. Maybe…”

“Well I never killed anybody” Jared protested. At least not intentionally, he thought as his father made a brief appearance through his mind.

“Did you move any of them? You know, before you started with our main stuff” Claire asked, obviously knowing the answer.

Jared didn’t speak. “I can’t believe this” he finally muttered.

Claire nodded at Xander to move a little further. “I’m sorry” she said, “I-”

“You should be sorry!” Jared suddenly attacked. “This is all your fault! You made me do this shitty stuff and now I’m gonna be dead soon because of you! You’re still a criminal and you’re gonna get away while I’ll be the one paying! Just like Emily. I quit this life and yet she gets to stay with you, the criminal!”

Claire, hearing about their daughter, became furious. “You don’t get it, do you?” she sneered “Was your father a criminal? Did you ever think you could do a better job? So let me tell you about Emily. Do you know that when we broke up and I didn’t know I was pregnant I almost killed her because I took sleeping pills almost every day because of you! And not because I still wanted you, don’t flatter yourself, but because you’re always so mean and hurtful! I don’t want her near you not because I’m bitter, but because you destroy everything you touch!”

Jared stopped yelling back when he heard this. In a way, what Claire said made sense. There was not one person in this world to get close to him and not get hurt in a way.

“Is anyone else in danger because of this?” he asked “Rose? …my brother?”

“I don’t know what to tell you” Claire replied. “Ayesha’s girlfriend and her family are safe and sound till now, but all this time they were kept in the dark anyway. Have you told anyone about your past?”

Jared gulped. “No. No, I haven’t” he lied. “I guess I’ll have to get away for a while.”

He walked towards the door silent, like he had been hypnotized. Xander and Claire did not try to stop him. Deep inside he knew he’d never get away. Someone would get him first, either the cops or the big guys alone. But just because his fate was almost sealed, that didn’t mean the people he cared about had to suffer too. He would cut all ties immediately, the decision was easily made.

While thinking about that night, he found himself near his house. A police car was parked outside. Suddenly his phone rang. It was Connor. His voice sounded very serious.

“Hey, are you ok? Look, some policemen are here and… well, I think you should come home”

“I can’t come right now” Jared said sharply and hung up. Fuck, I don’t have much time, he thought.

His steps led him to Claire’s house. He knocked on the door.

“Hi. Can I, uh, see her for a while?”

“Sure, come in” Claire said, obviously kind of sorry for the way she acted the other night.

Jared went inside. He picked Emily up and looked at her. We have the same eyes, he thought and a sense of peace calmed his anxious mind. At least I made one good thing in my life.

He spent almost the whole afternoon with her, trying to make up for all the lost time.

“I have to put her to bed, I’m sorry” Claire said when the time had passed.

“Can I do it?” Jared asked reluctantly and Claire nodded with a smile. “Ok duckling, time to put you to bed” he turned to Emily.
“Dada!!” Emily giggled as Jared was heading to her crib. Choked with emotion, he gave her a big hug.

“Take care duckling. Daddy will always love you” he said while putting her into the crib. “Dada dada!!” Emily shouted again with excitement.

“What will you do?” Claire asked when Jared was at the door. “I guess I’ll try and skip town, there’s a bus leaving for Bridgeport in three hours. After that, I’ll see… Thank you for today, it meant a lot you know and… I’m sorry for everything. Take care of yourself and Emily” he said.

Rose was sitting outside the bakery. The shop was about to close and the last customer had left a while ago. So she decided to get a breath of fresh air, although admittedly quite cold. She hadn’t told miss Myrtle anything yet about that dreadful morning at Jared’s place, although there were moments she thought she could not hold her tears back any longer.

Although Jared had finally managed to break her heart, she couldn’t stop thinking about him. No matter how much she pushed herself not to, no matter how broken or hopeless she felt.

Suddenly she heard a familiar voice. “Hey Rose. Long time no see.”

Standing near her was Christopher. “Christopher!” she said happily. “Long time indeed. How are you?”

“I’m good” he said with a smile. I came to ask you if you wanted to go for a walk after work, you know, to catch up”

“Of course” she said. “Let me go change and we can go for a walk. I’m so glad you stopped by, I’ve missed you!” she said, hoping that he would not take her words the wrong way.

That little weasel. He sure did not waste any time. Jared saw the whole thing as he was hiding near the bakery. Although he knew this was as close as he could let himself go, he wanted to take a look at her one last time. I’m sorry for everything babe. You deserve the world, he thought.

He dreamed about what would happen if things were different. If he had been just a tad different.

Why had he been so mean to her? To protect her, sure, but wasn’t being mean always his way of coping? What an idiot. Damn, I wanted to keep her from getting hurt and ended up hurting her anyway. Great job jerk, he thought to himself. I should have explained everything instead of that, now it’s too late.

Well. It’s done. I’m done, he thought trying to be strong – with minor success. Still, it was nice to at least dream about what could be, about ways to win her back. Maybe there could still be a chance. When, if, all of this was –

“Excuse me, are you Jared Frio?”

– over.

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  1. Yay I’m first πŸ™‚ This was another lovely chapter – glad to see Jared was genuine with Rose but only trying to protect her by being mean. Dang it, I was hoping the dead man comment wasn’t literal, but it looks like his shady past has caught up with him. The photos with Emily were precious~ I hope he can somehow make it out of this without any trouble.

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    1. Thank you so much, I’m so glad you liked it πŸ˜„ I loved taking pictures of him with Emily – they both looked so happy! ❀ Yes, unfortunately the comment was literal πŸ™ Let's hope that somehow everything will get better for everyone! Thank you for your lovely comment!

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  2. I’m second only because as I was reading it, I had to go eat lunch and stopped halfway. Glad to be here anyway!
    I can’t believe all this mess Jared has somehow managed to get himself into. Or Ayesha managed? This all sweet relationship with Rose unfortunately was too good to be true 😦 Praying for it turn out well for everyone :/

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    1. Or someone else apart from Jared and Ayesha? πŸ˜‰ I’m not going to say anything else though, haha! Well, things are not looking good now, but let’s hope for the best! 😟 Thank you for your comment, and all your sweet comments which I always enjoy, no matter when they’re made! πŸ˜€

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  3. Ah…that was fast. The cops never respond so fast in my games. XD

    No, Rose, Christopher isn’t exciting, but he’s a helluva lot safer. He’ll be able to give you the life you want.

    Oh, Jared. Buck up, buddy. It’s bound to be a long night.

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    1. Haha, that’s true! I guess they really wanted to get to him – for some reason, considering he was almost at the bottom of the food chain in that career πŸ˜• Ah, you’re right about Christopher but I’m not sure Rose can listen to this now! πŸ˜… Oh well, maybe in time πŸ™‚

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  4. Oh gosh, I feel bad for Jared now. So his relationship with Rose was actually genuine? As in he wasn’t trying to use her? Hmm idk how I feel about Christopher showing up. On one hand, I think he’s a sweet guy and that he’ll be good for Rose, but on the other hand I think Rose will still crave Jared. What to do?!

    Jared interacting with Emily was cute ☺️ I think he’d be a great dad if he had the chance!

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    1. Yes, everything Jared said was true! 😁 But he’s in a pretty tough place now, we’ll see if he can get out of it unscathed. And I agree that he would be a good dad, I think he’s already showings signs that he can change πŸ™‚
      You have a point about Christopher, not to mention that he’s such a nice guy who probably doesn’t deserve to get himself heartbroken. Ah, decisions, decisions lol!!
      Thank you so much for your comment! πŸ˜„

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  5. Oh damn… so Jared really did have feelings for Rose. I feel really bad for him with all the crap he went through, but I suppose all of what he’s done in the past is catching up on him. I hope that somehow he can make amends and everything will turn out okay with the cops. I’m not quite sure about Christopher yet; he’s sweet and would be able to give her the family life Rose she wants. However seeing Jared with Emily makes me think that he would be a wonderful father, and Rose would probably think about Jared a lot even if she went with Christopher… this is so confusing haha.
    Great chapter! ❀️

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    1. Thank you so much! ❀ Haha, it is confusing indeed! The truth is that Jared showed that he's beginning to soften up a little, but Rose hasn't seen his fatherly side yet, she still thinks he's a total and utter jerk! Let's see if Jared can pull himself out of this mess he's made and fix things for good this time! Thank you so much for your comment! πŸ˜„

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  6. I knew it, I knew it. I knew there had to be something up with Jared. He wouldn’t be that cold to Rose without a valid reason. Miss Myrtle and I were right this whole time.
    Although Claire was right about Jared being poison to everything he comes in contact with, I am happy that he finally got to spend some time with his daughter. Hopefully it won’t be the last time.

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    1. Yep, you called it and you were right (miss Myrtle too)! πŸ˜‰ ❀
      Claire did have a point there, but I guess Jared has shown some signs that he can be a better person (although he's shown them to everyone but Rose and his brother!πŸ€”)
      Let's hope things will not take a turn for the worse now..! πŸ™

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  7. Fine, fine, fine. Jared is not a total jerk after all, but that doesn’t excuse his bad manners. I believe he could have chosen a different approach to tell Rose about what kind of trouble he got into… They could have just ran away from Sunset Valley and have their happily ever after, oh well.

    I’m curious to see what happens next with both Rose and Jared. It was so heartwarming to see Emily spend the afternoon with her Daddy. Children always bring out the best in people πŸ™‚

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    1. Yes, he was off limits, you’re right! Maybe he felt like she was in danger with him and that he would drag her down if they stayed together… but I suppose honesty would be so much better than his meltdown!
      I love Emily, she’s so cute! ❀ The scenes with Jared and her were some of my favorite ever!
      Thank you so much for reading and commenting! πŸ˜€

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  8. Jared, run away quick. Or maybe cut a deal with the police, idk. Keep yourself out of jail and safe plz. You need to be reunited with our lovely Rose and live happily ever after!
    Emily is adorable. And I’m happy that he and Claire managed to talk a bit.

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  9. Well, have to say… That was a pretty good explanation. I’m less mad at him right now, but still… he could’ve handled it some other way, but well… if he did, he wouldn’t be Jared. I feel so bad for Rose still. 😦 Wondering if she’ll end up being with Christopher as a rebound.

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    1. You’re right, Jared can’t help but being Jared! πŸ˜‰ At least his feelings were genuine, though it’s not much of a consolation.
      Rose is a hopeless romantic which means (well in my head, not in the game unfortunately) that when she’s in love with someone that’s it. It’s difficult to even consider other options.
      But you’ll see! πŸ™‚


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