3.04 – At last, a boyfriend

Chapter tune: Deep Blue Something – Breakfast at Tiffany’s

Raina was still in a somewhat foul mood by the time she arrived at the park to meet Zach. But when his warm eyes caught hers, every bit of her negative emotions vanished just like that.

“Hi” he said, his whole face lighting up. “…wow. You look beautiful.”

Raina blushed, suddenly feeling shyer than usual. “Um… thank you.”

They decided to grab a coffee in one of the nearby cafes. Before they even arrived, Raina had learned that Zach was originally from Appaloosa Plains, moved to Boroughsburg about five years ago to chase an acting career that sadly never took off, that Fourdust (her dad’s former band) was one of his all time favorite bands, that he had a pet fish named Larry and that he loved – no, adored – his mom.

Oh, and he was so, so easy to smile.

They had their first kiss that evening, right before he dropped her home and told her he wanted to see her again.

The only word Raina could think of to describe that kiss was fine, which was pretty impressive, considering that words were practically her bread and butter.

One week later, they slept together for the first time.

Like all the previous times she shared her bed with someone, the experience was just… disappointing.

Not that she was expecting something different. Despite being a hopeless romantic, she held no illusions whatsoever on that front. Nobody had ever rocked her world, and honestly, she didn’t think she was any good either – always feeling too shy, too insecure. Sure, it gave her a sense of closeness and affection, but as for that raw, physical pleasure she read all about in her romance novels? Not once had she experienced it. Maybe mind-blowing sex was only meant to remain in her fantasies after all.

“So, how are things with Zach? You’ve been together for what now, four months?” Allison asked her friend, stirring her coffee and taking a sip to make sure the sweetness, color and temperature were just perfect.

The three girls were regularly hanging out since that night at the club. Allison’s friend Jess was often joining, although she and the cousins still didn’t feel entirely comfortable around each other. This time the girls were meeting for a morning coffee, at Charlie’s sparsely decorated living room.

“Everything’s… fine.” Raina muttered, even though it was obvious from the tone of her voice that everything was anything but fine.

Charlie shot her a piercing gaze. “Just fine? Girl, you are in a relationship at last where the guy is crazy about you! That’s what you wanted, right? It should be more than fine.”

“Trust me, I know! He is very sweet and all, but lately he never wants us to be… you know, alone. Whenever he has the night off, he keeps dragging me to hang with his friends at parties or clubs, while I just want to stay at home and cuddle and watch a movie or something. Plus, all his friends are horrible, I can’t stand them! All they want to do is drink shots and talk about boring stuff like the latest gossip and crap like that. And it’s not that they like me anyway; one of them said to my face that I’m too quiet for Zach, always standing in a corner with my drink like a wallflower.”

“That son of a bitch!” Charlie was livid. “So… why don’t you tell him that? Not the horrible friends part, obviously, but all the rest.”

“I don’t know… I don’t want to fight. Not that we would ever really fight, you know. Anytime we even come close to it, he starts complaining like a…” Raina cut her sentence, not sure how she wanted to proceed with her description.

“Like what?”

“…like this whiny little b… kid. Oh god, I’m terrible! I’m a bad girlfriend! And he’s not even that whiny, really. I just… I thought he’d be different, you know?”

“Dude! Telling him you want to relax and stay in once in a while is barely a reason to fight. But it seems to me you have more issues than that; which, until now, you were willing to overlook – for some reason. Is he that awesome in bed?”

Raina stared at her hands and remained silent. She couldn’t lie. And even if she felt like she craved some alone time with her boyfriend, whenever that happened, all she wanted was to get done with it and move on to the fun part; cuddling in bed. But lately, that wasn’t enough either.

“… I guess that’s a no. Then why the heck are you staying with him, girl?”

“Charlie… let’s not push her, okay?” Allison chimed in. “I’m sure it’s not that easy to break up with someone you care about.”

“That’s one of the problems…” Raina continued “I do care about him, so much. He’s really nice, and he’s very sensitive – I’m sure he’d not take it well if we broke up… which, side note, has never happened to me. I mean, someone actually wanting to be with me. What if I never get another chance at a relationship? I don’t wanna blow it and I don’t want to hurt him… And I guess we are still learning each other. But I also feel like we have nothing in common. He never wants to watch the movies I want to watch, he zones out whenever I mention a new book that I read or a random idea that I have, and he never wants to talk about… you know, interesting stuff!”

Charlie smirked. She knew exactly what her quirky cousin was talking about. Even if she was shy, she could ramble for hours to people she knew well; but the topics were either books and stories she obsessed about at the time, or the most random topics anyone had ever heard. “Like discussing about what would happen if the appliances had feelings or whether our dreams are simply images from alternate realities? Honey, in his defense, the aren’t many people around who are willing to hear about that stuff. …it’s okay though, you like what you like. But you’ll stay with him because he’s sensitive and you don’t want to hurt his feelings? What about your feelings? Girl, if you don’t break up now, won’t it be harder six months, one year later?”

“Yes… yes of course, you ‘re right. And to be honest, I just… sometimes I miss being single, you know? At least before, I was hoping that I’d meet the perfect guy, but now that I have Zach I keep wondering if he’s the one… and then, when I even consider he could be, I think… so that’s it? You know what I’m saying?”

Allison looked at her friend with sympathy. “Sweetie… I think this might be a sign that it’s not working out… and that he’s probably not the one. It’s a new relationship and you should be excited to be with him, not have so many problems already.”

Charlie shook her head in agreement. “I’d say keep him for the sex, but you already told us it’s no good, so…”

Raina realized she was done with the conversation. She’d already shared much more than what she initially intended, and she belatedly realized that Zach didn’t deserve that. She would have to talk to him about it instead… eventually. “Yeah… can we please change the subject? So how are the wedding preparations going?”

“…Ah yes, I’m so exhausted! Oliver is working too many hours and I’m doing everything myself. But we finally decided on a venue, at last. And in about a month I have my first wedding dress appointment. You two will come with, right?”

“Yes!! Of course! Oh man, this is so exciting! Will your mom will be there too?” Raina asked, realizing a little too late that the mom topic was a little uncomfortable for both of the siblings.

Allison’s face darkened, a blatant contrast to her usual sunny demeanor, but it only lasted for a second. Clearly both she and her brother were capable of hiding their true feelings, each in their own special way. “No… she’s quite busy this time of year. But it’s okay, she said she’ll probably be there next time, or as the wedding is approaching… probably.”

“Well anyway” Charlie chimed in to lighten the mood “as long as there’s free champagne, I’m going anywhere.”

That afternoon, Raina asked Zach to come at her apartment. The conversation with her friends left determined to deal with her relationship problems head on. She’d either demand what she wanted out of it or break up; there was no other way.

When Zach arrived, he had the widest smile Raina had ever seen. “Babe! You will not believe it!”

She internally rolled her eyes. So much enthusiasm… he was behaving like a little kid on steroids sometimes. Well, this is not very nice Raina, she told herself and forced a semi-sweet smile. “What happened?”

“I met a director at the bar yesterday, and he told me I have exactly the face he wants for a new series he’s working on. He called me today to set up a date for an audition! Babe… you should see the cast. It’s got some major names. This is my big break, I can feel it!”

Well. This was huge. She immediately regretted her first reaction. “Really? That’s so great, congratulations! I’m so happy for you!”

“Thanks babe!”

Raina sat on the couch and he promptly followed. “So… do you want some coffee? I made one for me already, but I can make you some too, if you want.”

“Nah, I’m good. I’ll just have a smoke if you don’t mind. So hey, maybe if I get famous and if one of your books gets turned into a movie someday, I can play the part.”

“Well… I wouldn’t count on it.”

“Babe… why all the negative energy? You’ll get published soon, I know it!”

“First of all, I believe that most books are positively ruined if they get made into movies and second, I have to actually finish one first. But someone is bored to read it and give me some feedback, so I’m stuck.” …Well that wasn’t very nice either Raina. It’s not his fault you can’t finish your damn book.

“Whoops… sorry about that. But I guess I’m not really a bookish guy. I wouldn’t be much help anyway.”

“What about scripts? Won’t you have to read those?”

“I guess… but those are just scripts. Totally different thing.”

“Ugh, okay. But you didn’t want me to give it to someone else either.”

“Yeah, but only because you wanted to give it to that asshole, Andrew.”

“Hey. He’s my friend’s brother, don’t talk about him like that.”

“So? He’s your friend’s brother, not your friend. And I see how rude he is to everyone, especially you. Why would you want to give your drafts to him? Hell, why are you even defending him? To me?”

“Because you’re wrong! He is kind of blunt sometimes, but he always gives his honest opinion about things. I… I admire that. Plus, he actually likes books and he’s really smart.”

“Oh, and I’m not?”

“What? N-no! I didn’t say that…”

“Fuck babe, you are really mean sometimes, you know that?”

Oh crap, here we go again… “I’m sorry, alright? I don’t even know what we’re arguing about…” This is not going where it’s supposed to go…

“Listen babe… I don’t wanna fight either. In fact, I was going to ask you to come to the Docks with me tonight to celebrate. The guys are gonna be there too.”

Oh, hell no. Raina would rather die than spend another night with Zach’s friends in such a short amount of time. She had suffered their presence only two nights ago and desperately needed a break. Preferably a permanent one. “Oh shoot, you know what? I can’t tonight… I wanted to tell you earlier, I have a deadline and I have to work.”

“Alright, then how about tomorrow? I don’t have to be at the bar till the day after.”

“I have to work tomorrow too.”

“Come on babe… not even for like one hour or something?”

“No, because going out will require me to get ready, so it will take me more than an hour. Can’t we just stay inside? Just the two of us?”

“But… how is that celebrating babe?”

God, this guy… he could be so dense sometimes. Deal with your issues head-on, Raina… Still, she would rather die than be direct about what was on her mind, especially if doing so would lead to conflict – until, of course, it was too late and all her repressed feelings came flooding in.

“Okay sure, let’s go.”

“You don’t seem too happy about it.” Zach said, finally noticing that something was wrong.

“Well what do you want me to say? I told you I had to work, I told you to stay in and you’re not listening!”

“But I don’t understand… even if we stay in, won’t you have work to do?”

“God, you’re so frustrating!”

I’m frustrating? Something is clearly up with you and you won’t even tell me about it!”

This lead to a second round of arguing which, funnily enough, was exactly what Raina was trying to avoid by not speaking her mind when she was supposed to.

“Babe…” Zach finally muttered “…are you unhappy with us?”

“I… I don’t know…”

“Well… that’s so not what I wanted to hear.”

“It’s just… sometimes I feel like you don’t get me at all…”

“But you never tell me what’s in that head of yours baby…” he said gently “how should I get you? I’m not a mind reader.” God, he was sweet. Raina felt embarrassed. She was the frustrating, flighty one most of the time, and he had been nothing but patient. But why couldn’t she feel head over heels in love with him, no matter how hard she tried?

“I know… you’re right, I know that.”

“Babe… where do you see us going from here? This relationship I mean.”

“What? I… I don’t know. I haven’t really thought about that.

“Because I really think we should talk.”

The next morning, Charlie was doing her usual morning run, when her phone rang.

It was Raina, at a time when she would normally be sleeping; she almost never woke up before 10 am.

“Yo! What are you doing up so early?”

I haven’t slept all night!

“…And now everything is right in the world again. Why, what happened?”

Well, Zach and I had a long, hard talk yesterday… I’m still kind of shocked.

“Aren’t you supposed to not be shocked by long hard things anymore?”

Charlie!! I’m serious.

“You’re right, I’m sorry! So…” Charlie’s voice grew more concerned “Do I need to go shopping for ice-cream?”

No… we didn’t break up.

“So what happened girl?”

We uh… we are sort of… moving in together.

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  1. Raina. Girl. No. Just noooooooooooo. All of the nos. Reading the first bit I thought she probably needs a little time to heself to figure herself out and be alone. But girl. GIRL. Moving in with Zach seems like a SPECTACULARLY bad idea.
    At this point, she’s just way too desperate for her own good. I’m hoping Charlie will smack some sense into her and that she doesn’t actually go through with it. ‘Cause GIIIIIRRRRLLL. No.
    More pls and thx. πŸ˜€

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    1. Lmaoooo!!! πŸ˜‚ She is sooo desperate for a boyfriend right now, she’s willing to do and overlook anything!
      Such a bad idea. Like, SUCH a bad idea! We’ll soon see how this is going to work out for her though πŸ˜‰ (because I’m finally back on track after vacations and going back to work 😭) Maybe Zach will have more sense in the end? We’ll see πŸ˜‰
      Thank you so much for your comment!! πŸ˜€ ❀ ❀

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    1. Lmao!! But it will! Right? :p She is kind of inexperienced with “real” relationships so for now she kind of willing to go along with everything… not the smartest move I have to say! We’ll soon see how that works out though πŸ™‚
      Thank you sooo much! ❀ ❀

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  2. Ahhhhhh noooooooooooooooo this is a terrible idea!!!!! I know she really really wants a boyfriend right now, but she needs to take it slow and figure out what she really wants in the relationship. I hope this doesn’t crash and burn spectacularly *facepalm*

    Your pictures are GORGEOUS btw!!

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    1. Lol!! Yup, it’s a terrible, terrible idea! They don’t even know each other yet, so living together will definitely put extra strain on their relationship… As for crashing and burning hmmm… you know I’m already a fan of that, lmao! So we’ll see πŸ˜‰
      Awww thank you soooo much! I really appreciate it ❀ ❀
      And thank you so much for reading and commenting! πŸ˜€ ❀

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    1. Hehehe. I looove characters coming with bad ideas – that means I get to make everything they built crash and burn into a million little pieces, muahaha!! >:) Whoops, I got a little carried away there, lol!
      Such a bad idea. I doubt Charlie will be able to do something this time… but maybe everything will work out okay for her in the end? Lol, we’ll see!
      Thank you so much for reading and commenting! ❀

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  3. WOW. OKAY. I LOVE that twist ending, haha. Delivered so perfectly, talk about comedic timing. I can totally see why this is happening though, Raina is so bad at standing up for herself and dealing with confrontation. I see soooo much of myself in her – the second guessing during relationships, the being quiet around people who don’t want to hear about all the books I’m reading… This guy is clearly not right for her though. And if they move in his asshole friends will be around more… oh girl. Bad idea.

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    1. Lol!! Thank you so much!! ❀ ❀ I loved that you loved it, haha! πŸ˜€
      Oh man, she's SO bad at those things… she kind of goes with the flow in order to avoid stirring unpleasant situations, and then she ends up worse than before *smh*
      Zach is not the guy for her, you're right. And it doesn't help that he's not a complete tool (she would have an excuse to ditch him if that were the case, lol).
      Hmmm, I am sooo not in the mood to go into CAS and make all those asshole friends actually *hint hint!* lol! But yeah… such a bad idea!
      Thank you so much for your comment! πŸ˜€ ❀

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  4. This kind of relashionship can make both grows up and make them change for the best if they know and want to deal and accept the differences of each others as theirs.

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    1. Hmmm, you might be right. But I think ultimately they’re both not only entirely different, but they don’t have any chemistry either. Makes it more difficult to stay and make an effort πŸ˜‰ We’ll soon see what becomes of their relationship! πŸ™‚
      Thank you so much for reading and commenting! ❀

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        1. Yes, you could definitely say that! She doesn’t want to be alone right now, she doesn’t realize they’re not a great match, plus she doesn’t want to confront what’s wrong and *could* be fixed in that relationship… very sad indeed!
          Buuut maybe everything will *somehow* work out for the best? Lol, we’ll see! πŸ˜‰

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          1. We know depends on what they want you to tell (or what you want them to tell) , for real the sims knows if they are matching or not, if a sims 3 couple you ask them to kiss they start a fight after… not a good couple lol. On stories depends on the author will πŸ™‚
            She realised indeed, she told her friends and cousin he never want to read her drafts, he isn’t a bookworm he confessed to her and she sees he stays a lot with his friends she cannot stand n she is forcing herself because she doesn’t want to be alone, and to hurt his feelings.

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            1. Haha yes! I’ve stopped paying any attention to what the sims want I’m afraid! πŸ˜‚
              Yup, it all boils down to these two reasons! She still has some time to think this through though… maybe she’ll change her mind? πŸ˜‰

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              1. Ah sometimes you really glance at them if you are stuck it could help for stories always . She has to taste the life with him before getting a true opinion I think.


  5. Zach isn’t a bad guy but they don’t really have much in common. Seems like she fell for him because he was a “hero” the first time they met. Raina was so bad at explaining what she wanted, and then didn’t really say it at all. She needs to learn how important communication is for relationships (something everyone can work on, really).

    She’s going to resent him even more once they live together, because he’ll probably have people over all the time.

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    1. You are so right! Zach is actually quite nice, but these two don’t see things eye to eye. And you are also right that she probably fell in love with that first impression she got from him – which is obviously not all Zach is.
      She definitely needs to learn to communicate more!
      Thank you so much for reading and commenting! πŸ˜€

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  6. Seeing Raina interact with Zach (definitely annoying, despite his ‘bad boy’ appearance he’s sensitive in a very immature way) made me realise she does have a harsh sort of side to her, even if she’s terrible at confronting and expressing her true feelings. She needs a boyfriend she can talk freely to, whatever interesting weird thing pops into her mind, and not have to keep quiet in order to spare his feelings. And that guy would definitely be Andrew!

    I feel like what may have gotten Raina ‘friendzoned’ so many times was her intense desperation for love, which I can understand why that would make some people uncomfortable and not willing to move the relationship forward. She puts an incredible amount of worth within the *concept* of being in love, not herself or even the guy she wants to be in love with, and it’s quite sad to read. I really want her to be happy and fall in love with someone wonderful, but I think she needs to step back first, focus her happiness from other sources than a guy, and put more value in herself, because she truly is a lovely person despite her flaws.

    NO. Oh no no no. I didn’t expect that ending at all, I was hoping that Raina had called Charlie to say she broke up with Zach, but this is honestly the worst idea she’s probably ever had. Moving in with him to (I assume) try spark that love, when the signs that this relationship isn’t working are clear as day, is 100% only going to make things worse. Yikes yikes yikes. YIKES.

    The story is coming along really nicely so far! 😁

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    1. Oh, I was totally going for that “sensitive but in an immature way” attitude for Zach, so thank you so much for pointing that out! And you’re soooo right about Raina too, needing someone who will not whine at her occasional harshness and who would enjoy her random ramblings! Hmmm I think Andrew might just be the guy too! πŸ˜‰
      Well, I don’t think I need to say anything more on what you pointed out. You really captured the very essence of the idea I have for Raina and her behavior – I couldn’t have said it better myself! πŸ˜€ ❀ I do think she deserves not only to be loved the way she wants to, but to love that way as well – because she still hasn't felt this way, as desperate as she is for that.
      Haha, that was quite the dumb idea, wasn't it? Let's hope one of them will change their mind soon, because it's clear things won't get better between them!
      I really loved your comment! ❀ Thank you so much! πŸ˜€

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  7. I’ve found myself with a bit of time on my hands at long last, so I’m back! Hmm, I was a bit apprehensive of Zach, but anyone who loves their mother is a good one in my eyes. And that affection for him lasted for about two seconds until Raina started talking about his friends. I was dying when she called him a whiny bitch lmao XD Charlie gave her some sound advice though. Her feelings do matter. If she’s only staying with him because he’s β€œsafe” that’s not good enough. They literally have zero in common at all. I’m surprised they lasted four months. Zach handled their argument(s) well. I expected him to get frustrated with her, but he was rather sweet and asked her to share what was on her mind. He seems child-like at times, but that was mature of him. That ending came out of nowhere, haha. Just when I thought they were making some progress… Poor Raina and her inability to confront people. She kind of reminds me of Andrew with her inner thoughts. The only difference is she scolds herself for being mean while he would’ve just said it aloud. I suspect things with Zach are going to go south really quick. Loved this chapter! Hope you’re staying safe ❀

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    1. Hi Amy, it’s so good to see you here! πŸ˜€ I am so sorry for my super late reply! I am well and I hope you and your loved ones are also safe! ❀
      Yesss, Raina should realize that it's not bad to stir the waters sometimes and that she needs to express what she wants.
      Zach is indeed both sweet and frustrating, as well as both mature and immature. But maybe if Raina communicated her thoughts better, he wouldn't be so surprised by her outbursts hmmm…
      You are right that they don't mesh well though, and I guess you already found out what happened to their unfortunate pairing πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚
      And you're right that her thoughts are sometimes reflecting Andrew's way of thinking a bit too much. A fight between those two would be a blast to write, I'm sure lmao! πŸ˜‚
      Thank you sooo much for your comment! πŸ˜€ ❀ ❀

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  8. Soo, I guess I’m here, that’s the chapter I paused reading on. I had to speed read through the earlier ones since I kind of forgot what was happening.
    Zach’s behavior is very cringe-worthy, although I’m sure he has a good heart, judging by the way he’s definitely not an asshole in their interactions and tries to please Raina as hard as he can (and fails miserably at it!). I think they’re just not a good match, it’s not necessarily him that’s the problem. I think some of his qualities that Raina finds annoying another girl could find quite endearing. The issue might also be that they’re not on the same mental level. Raina didn’t outright call him stupid, but she was dangerously close… He may not exactly be dumb dumb, but he’s no intellectual and is more of a simple man. I believe Raina looks for more in a guy than someone simple and dependable.
    And then they’re moving in? Raina is really, really bad at communicating what she wants. And very desperate. But I do love how she’s a flawed protagonist and very relatable with her issues. Zach is totally not getting how introverts operate… She needs that battery recharged after hanging out with his friends!

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    1. Oh my, I am so late to reply..! Again! 😫 Sorry about that!
      I am sooo happy to see you here and read your thoughts! πŸ˜€
      Hah, it’s very understandable you had to speed read through the earlier chapters – I mean, I kinda had to do it too, lmao! Let’s hope I produce a chapter soon(-ish lol) and neither of us will have to do it again!
      Lmao, these two are so incompatible it almost hurt to reread their interactions! Simple man is quite right and I think Raina needs someone to mentally stimulate and challenge her, as well as be stimulated and challenged by her!
      One of the reasons I loved writing Raina is that she is truly – I mean truly – flawed. Let’s hope she doesn’t become unlikable though, because that’s an issue I fear!
      Hah, I’m an introvert too and I was raised with parents who were both extroverts… so I can relate to Raina’s troubles here! πŸ˜‚
      Thank you so much for reading and commenting Jowita, and again, I am sooo sorry for my late reply! ❀ ❀️

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